It’s been a min-ute since I’ve even thought about this blog. And there’s LOTS to share. For starters, I am one day shy of being half-way through my pregnancy. Wuuuut? To the zero people reading this blog; yes, I am pregnant. And I’ve been sitting here thinking: Jazmine. You love blogs. You love YouTube and Instagram and you love them for the amazing storytelling and sharing that happens through these platforms. You always want to write down your thoughts and it’s time to be generous. This kind of generosity is something I learned while I was studying Meisner, a very intense acting technique. In it’s essence it’s about sharing whatever you might have to offer the world without hesitation, without personal judgement and with the sole purpose to give of yourself to the universe. So, here I am.
Trying this blog thing again. I think I do have a lot to say and trust me, in my personal life I say a lot- probably too much but I think this is a good place for me to give and give generously. If anyone ever does stumble across my little thoughts maybe they can mean something to someone but if I don’t type it up and send it out, the universe (or internet) will never have any of “me” to offer.
Some things I want to share about what I’ve been going through the past 19 weeks and 6 days:
– Keeping my pregnancy private and NOT a secret. This has been one of the most beneficial things I’ve done for my sanity. I’m also not showing a ton but there are so many less things to worry about. I don’t have to feel bad for not wanting to respond to old acquaintances about my bodily functions. I definitely don’t have to hear unsolicited advice from people I would never solicit any advice from ever. And most of all I feel like this is such a personal journey and has been from the beginning. No preening necks or eyes. Just me and my dearest loved ones walking hand-in-hand toward the birth on my little piece of magic. Also, my peeps have been doing a good job making this feel like a really special time that I haven’t felt that all encompassing pull to make it special on the ‘gram. You know? Me and my baby don’t need those 100 likes and that feels really good.
– My husband rocks, he rocks my socks off. Seriously, get you a partner who respects and understands you. Me and my guy are really, very different. He’s into stoicism (look it up) and philosophy and he’s an engineer. I am a wild actor/writer/wanna be blogger/whatever I feel like who loves to express all of my feelings. Me and E have been rocking together for 13 solid years and we have been through A LOT and we have always come out the other side together and stronger. But this here baby business? It’s no joke and I am so so so so soooo thankful to have this particular human by my side.
– Find some mamas and daddies whose opinion you respect and who you vibe with. I’ve have been so fortunate to find a handful of women who have just recently become mothers and they are the best sounding board (better than those forums a-la-Google, sorry). I ask them about peeing and sleeping and baby kicks and any myriad of things. They always give me the real and they always give so much love to me and each other. That’s some badass women power ‘ish right there if I ever seen it.
– It’s SO easy to go down the buy-everything-baby hole! For real. What the hell? There are a bajillion baby products and as someone who tries to live a minimal lifestyle it is hard for ya girl to not want everything. So instead, I have bought nothing- save a few super cute Baby Scientist books. If I ever finish a Baby Registry for a Minimalist you will find it somewhere here on the blog.
– Just take the pictures and write in the journal. You’ll want to remember that weird day your public bone felt like it was splitting apart and you cupped yourself all the was to the gym exit door. And also, it’s fun to watch your ever expanding belly. It’s like when you were in middle school and you’d draw that little picture in the corner of you notebook and flip it and watch it dance. Yes? No? Whatever.
I think that’s all I got for now. Sorry no photos or links or anything. I’ll get there (I hope). For now, I’m just going to be happy I’ve done just this little bit. Until next time…
Jazmine PS 